I’ve been dreaming of my first home my entire life. Do you have one of those major dreams?

I succeeded recently. I manifested 4000sq feet and 5 acres of gorgeous, sturdy nature near friends {yes I miss you, always}. It’s quiet now. I am healing from the tumultuous Great Awakening year. The year of breaking through old patterns, lies and programming.

I can’t quite relax.

I guess the story that I am breaking through is still here

My Mom says that I have always been this way. She says I spearheaded every single activity and adventure. She didn’t have to “lead” me anywhere. I think she mentioned what a relief it was when I could drive myself to everything.

Overachiever. Right here. But healing. 

When my daughter Narayani was born, everyone said it was wonderful how I had softened. Confidence was never my issue, and being over forty I was a “relaxed” Mom. I think they mentioned how nice it was that I could work and be attentive without being so stressed.

Martyr complex. Right here. But healing.

We moved out of our house thinking we would close upon arrival, but we ended up staying with our god-family at the Ashram for 3 weeks. One of the best gifts I’ve ever received from my Gurudeva. We needed that time to bond. I think our friends mentioned that we would need some time to organize, get our lives together before we jumped into service mode.

Slightly Obsessive. Right here. But healing.

The soul is made of desire. {Desire with direction is amazing. Maps are good. We all need maps.}

Addiction is not of the soul, it’s of the body and mind. I am addicted to keeping up.

Truly manifesting our soul desire deserves attention. After a major manifestation, like a house, you need to slow down, observe, and definitely heal.

Softness and sacredness is my goal right now. It’s good for my clients, my family, my health.

There’s no rest for soul work.

But my addictions? I don’t know where they came from. I know that discipline is not my short-coming, except when it comes to resting, to being soft, and to my own healing.

It seems I manifested this house just in time to get back to work.

What are you master manifesting?