The noise of negative programming that leads to self-sabotage, confusion, anxiety and depression is real (a speciality of this era called Kali yuga), but this specific habit was unique and time sucking. Cleansing is one of my favorite rituals. This working out boundaries, emotional intelligence, past and present challenges in my own spiritual blueprint was becoming an obsession. 

Here’s what I figured: Unwinding the issues in my tissues lead to witnessing touchstones in my relationships that I either wished to keep or drop. My soul demanded knowing when and what to say in tolerance and humility. With these shower fights, I assumed I wasn’t speaking my truth in real life because it was either…

A) Not appropriate to bring up (yet)

B) Attempted and / or / then thwarted without resolution

C) Maybe never going to be brought up. like ever.

But really? Is that really why I was talking to noone?

Or was I simply afraid to say the thing?

Then I learned about Hanuman from the epic Indian adventure The Ramayana.

The glories of the greatest power-coupleship of Sita, Rama, their family and friends mirror every type of sin and virtue in human experience. Love, war, envy, stealing, humility, heroism, celebration, and peaceful community. All there. The Ramayana speaks to the ego shadow work of healing selfish desires that sometimes get us real real crazy.

In one part, the great monkey warrior Hanuman is so angry that he sets the demon ruled city of Lanka on fire. Sita has been kidnapped by the demon Ravana, after Rama and his brother Laksmana leave for the forest for a 14 year exile (all after Rama is deceived by his Step-mother – super sad). Hanuman is devoted to them.

Watching Lanka burn, Hanuman has a moment of recognition. His anger, while totally understandable, almost burns down those he loves. He is devastated to realize he almost hurt his beautiful mother-like Sita Devi. It all works out in the end, and here’s the epic up-level for my story …..

I became a yogi to work with righteous anger. I learned to channel my emotional content into an ancient healing modality. Like a massage for my insides, yoga cleared the muck of my monkey mind. It allowed me to not only experience joy, passion, and peace but I realized that to then teach that yoga in any part of my life would spark the people in my life. It lit them up and awakened their bliss.

20 years later, I’m teaching psycho-spiritual discernment as a dance.

Not everyone is taught right action, speech, and intention from birth. Patterns reveal vital opportunities for growth. We all fall down.

Our human ego spirals out. We lose the plot of our own destiny.

One of the greatest lessons I know is that the relationship you have with your own debilitation is the basis for your power.

Bliss comes from facing that.

All geniuses are a little crazy.

All souls need to take small steps on the program that keeps us “sane” so that we can serve, share and repeat. Everyday.

How are you owning your spiritual values? Are you taking steps to activate your higher wisdom? Do you remember why you began?

I was having those discussions in the shower to organize my intuition and knowledge, true, but it was taking too much of my time. I learned that practicing balance, active listening, powerful breathing, sacred ritual, and body-mind vibrance increased the potency of my spiritual values. Recognizing anger, jealousy, greed and defensiveness that leads to violence, impotence, and suffering is part of taking radical accountability to any unchecked suffering.  That darker realm work leads to bliss!

Bliss is my jam.

The only way to practice bliss is through commitment. Mentorship, partnership and community. Not working shit out in my own head.

I’ll meet you tonight in Soul Culture Circle. Come for sacred community and a supportive space to increase the potency of your spiritual values. See you there!

In Clarity, Flow and Love,